Today is my birthday. It’s bittersweet, having lost my father so recently. Having a dead parent and now officially being “in my 40s” has the potential to make me feel Really Old.
But honestly, I am too busy to worry much about it. And I like being this age way better than I liked my angsty 20s. I do wish I had the flat belly I had before that 4th baby at age 39 blew it all to hell, but in general, this is a good age. I get myself. I know what I want and what I don’t want. I am happy.
Last night was a lovely pre-birthday evening. I was worried it would go badly, since E. had an unbelievable amount of homework to accomplish. Last year, this much homework on a schoolnight would have led to a complete meltdown on his part, but he’s much more chilled out and focused this year. So he just sat down and did it - for about three hours straight. He never complained. He never whined. He kept at it in good spirits until he had completed everything that needed completing.
And we had a good supper, all together at the table. It was spaghetti, and C. mostly enjoyed throwing hers all over the floor, but she was happy while doing it. The giant puppy did his job and cleaned it all up for us after she was done making her mess.
When E. finished his homework, he and his big brother and the giant puppy and I all went for a nice stroll around the ‘hood, just as it got dark. The air was cool, but not too cool. The boys were funny and jolly. It was a lovely way to end the day.
And then, C. gave me the best birthday gift of all: sleep. She went to bed around 8pm and didn’t really wake up for the day until 6:30 am. And I slept like a log.
Life is good.